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Lately I'm feeling falling into a new depression, there is really any reason for it.

I feel like talking to my loved one, but she always seems to be busy with her life.
Not that is bad, but I feel alone.

I guess it might be the lovely feeling, but still isn't reason enough!

The worst is that I found myself stalking at her sites, she had  been online, but just didn't talk to me at all.
I might just stop caring if she talks to me anymore.

The stress of it, and the other things that bother me, gave me an horrible headache today I had to do many exercises to avoid the pain.

I know I should start focusing on my own life, but there is nothing really to focus in. I have to wait till university starts, I haven't been call back from any job I applied to. I have nothing else to do, Shamely (?) I have no friends to see, and even I had It wouldn't be a good idea, since my current mood.

I have been taking 2 hours walks around the city, mostly to avoid the subways, I keep on standing to closely to it, or  stare at the rials, I'm afraid I would jump into them, I know one day I will just do it without thinking. I have catched myself walking to the yellow zone many times.

"Is the worst way to go out and you might survive" Is the though that keeps me off the  jumping though.

I'm really sad, I want to be noticed... I'm never noticed or payed atention enough.

Now I'm crying. Such a lame broken creature.